still tired.

still haven't made or found the time to post pics of both birthday parties. sometime. sigh.
today was long. i had my students' piano rehearsals in the morning, for the second day in a row, and then an afternoon of teaching. and i just found out that i can't get the liability insurance through state farm, which i need in order to use a church for my students' workshop in january. i had intended on opening it up to teachers' students in the portland area, but that won't be possible if i can't make it affordable. argh. i spent so much time trying to find a space to use in the first place, and now i don't think it will work at all. so many naptimes, and it's all been a waste. i want a vacation now.
s is becoming quite the screecher. i was cuddling with her after she woke up from a nap today, and then z wanted to cuddle too, so i put him on my other leg in the rocking chair, and she started crying & screaming. she didn't want him there - she wanted me all to herself. she's quite the spoiled baby. it's not the sort of behavior i want to encourage.
it was a busy weekend. i took the kids to z's swimming lesson, & then did some errands, while j went on a bike ride. i did xmas decoration shopping during the kids' nap, and then we headed to a housewarming party for a really brief visit. a baby sitter came at 6, and we went out for dinner at serrattos before going to a friend's birthday party. sunday morning brought piano rehearsals for me, church for j & the kids, and then grocery shopping & xmas shopping & cooking & laundry in the afternoon/evening, and climbing for j & z.
i'm so tired, but i need to decompress. the past week, s has woken up screaming 3-4 times a night. if i just turn of the monitor for a few minutes, she stops, but then inevitably starts again 5-10 minutes later. if i get out of bed, she usually stops (until it starts an hour or two later). it's the worst kind of sleep - you settle in, finally fall asleep, and then 30 min into it - bam - screaming, causing adrenaline to course through your body. it takes another 20-30 min to settle back to sleep, only to have it happen again 2 to 4 hours later.
i'm desperate for a normal night's sleep. and for more free time, but i'm sure this will be the case for the next 18 years.