so this is what zane wore on inauguration day.  i tried to catch him smiling, but kept missing.  he's been a challenge lately.  this past week he was extremely colicky as the days progressed, one late afternoon crying for over two hours.  i'm on an elimination diet now, as i think his distress was diet related.  it's exhausting when he's so fussy.  and feedings are frustrating with the whole gastric reflux thing, as he pulls off frequently, crying, requiring burping or walking around, only to try again for another 30 seconds.  i'm still getting used to the teaching schedule.  my milk supply was better this week, but only because i would pump when waking up in the middle of the night, and after night feedings, and whenever the opportunity presented itself.  i often feel like a gerbil running on one of those wheels, trying to stay ahead.  and unfortunately most of the milk i pumped this past week had to be quarantined in the freezer as "colic" milk, so here i am again having to catch up, so that my mom & j have enough to feed him while i'm teaching.  parenting is one scavenger hunt, so to speak, after another.  infant gets uncharacteristically fussy, so parent frantically searches for the cause, and then researches solutions.  there's lots of help online, but it's all completely conflicting.  so... what did i do this weekend... i had an ice cream date for mommy time set up before the colic started happening & the elimination diet, so i went ahead & had one small scoop from baskin robbins.  so far cherry jubilee isn't much of a problem.  i watched z while j went climbing today, and a friend came over to chat.  z & i went for a long walk.  yesterday was spent doing chores.  friday night i cooked the food for the diet - roasted a turkey, along with potatoes, yams, & squash, & cooked rice.  we watched a movie, and did the same last night.  i'm thinking of canceling our cable.  we never have the time to watch tv, and if we have free moments, i'd rather spend them watching an actual movie.  and most of what we would want to watch, we can find online, like snippets from the daily show.  the only thing is that we would need to get a digital tv to be able to get any sort of reception at all.  our dishwasher is broken, so we've been washing all the dishes by hand this weekend.  a repair person is coming tomorrow.  i hope we don't need a new one.  i'm worried about the recession and the safety of j's job.  intel is doing lots of cost cutting.