life is so busy these days. i have lots of thoughts to record, not to mention pictures, but no time.  z is getting bigger & bigger.  his grip is getting stronger, he's able to stand (assisted, of course) for longer & longer periods of time.  he loves standing in front of mirrors!  we're working on tummy time.  he's not a big fan of it.  my mom said my brother wasn't either, and never crawled.  he went straight to walking, so perhaps z will go that way, too.  who knows.  he's able to sit in the bumbo chair for a decent amount of time, and we just sat him in an exersaucer yesterday, for the first time.  every time since, he's had more and more fun.  it's a total sensory overload for him.  it's really entertaining to watch.  

z has had trouble & pain with feeding, so we went to the pediatrician, and he put him on zantac.  unfortunately, the pharmacist made the prescription out for FIVE TIMES what the dosage was supposed to be, and they caught the mistake when we went for a refill.  j & i were so upset.  what if it had been lethal????!  how would they have rectified the situation?  as it was, rite aid gave us the refill for free.  we've tried to speak to the district manager pharmacist to complain, but he hasn't returned our phone call.  we'll keep trying.  

i think the medicine is helping z, but he still has pain sometimes.  i have to be sure to nurse him upright, & keep him sitting up 10 min after every feeding.  he's doing a pretty good job of sleeping these days, with a couple of odd nights now & then.  perhaps due to his good sleeping, z eats about every two hours throughout the day, making it hard to get anything done.  everything takes twice as much effort.  it feels like i'm losing my mind.  i repeat myself in conversation.  my short term memory is completely shot.  it feels as if i have no organizational skills whatsoever.  i started teaching again full time, last week.  my mom watches z while j is at work.  it's going well, but i'm really tired at the end of the day, and it feels like i never get much of a break.  the day goes by, and i have about one hour to get emails done & everything.  then it's time to pump & go to bed.  and it feels like i'm constantly washing the pumping parts.  i'm afraid my supply is going down.  i don't know if it's stress, or just fatigue, or just less nursing on z's part... i'm trying to eat oatmeal every day, which is supposed to help.  luckily i have some milk stored in the freezer, but i worry it won't be enough.  i really don't want to have to wake up in the middle of the night just to pump, but i might have to start doing that.  that's the last thing i need...